Who I Am...

Neither fire, nor water, nor air, I know not who I am...

ARS (Automated Response System)

Warning: This is not a technical blog about any of my project, so please discontinue if you are thinking something like that. 

Automated Response System (ARS) is very common word that we come across when we watch Hollywood movies and read some Sci-fi stuff, but today I am talking about our personal automated response system that, most of us don't realize that it exists somewhere in our body (brain to be precise). The most common example of ARS is our reflexes which automatically reacts to some of the activities around, another example is out sixth sense (yes! I believe in it). But, I am not going to talk about any of these systems too, today I am talking about some of the systems in our body that we rarely notice which is little funny and equally interesting too. 

Today I was working on solving one of the project problem to help one of my student since early morning, and, suddenly I realized that after few hours of head banging I am feeling very very hungry. As, the work is in deadlock, so I decided to take some time off and start writing blog... now what is the connection between my hunger, blog and project?? Simple, its my ARS when I am very busy or mentally tired I do this. I started to think about my school and college days, I never looked panic during my exams, there is always a chilling attitude about exams from my side, whereas many of my friends were totally panicked and rushing around. Then I noticed that it was my ARS which made me do something different then being panic. I remember that I used to eat a lot those days, and gain a hell lot of weight during my exams (combine effect if eating and sitting), and now this system has also acquired another member in the family which is my blog. Whenever I am supposed to be super busy, panicked, or tired I do one of these activities.

Its kind of discovery in self, I don't know how many of you realize that you have this system, but I am very sure that you must be having something which is funny at the same time very interesting. I remember one of very close friend of mine who used to shout 'Aao... Aao' before all viva exams, saying that he gains confidence after that... I am sure its his ARS, another one I have seen doing moonwalk right before the exams (its true!!!), and I also used to watch a lot of movies before my exams... all these are ARS!

Believe me, for some these are just silly activities but for some its just like performance enhancer, rather then being panicked their subconscious mind make them do some other activities that I mentioned, to make them roll again.

I think, my ARS has served the purpose for me... time to get back to work again! :) 

ciao...

Maine to panga lena hai...

Kabhi kabhi mere dil main khayal aata hai... well, aaj kal kabhi kabhi nahi kai baar mere dil main khayal aata hai ki life is going on the same track for a long time. But, 'khujali' inside me is not letting me to be on same track for a long time, jab tak life main koi panga na ho tab tak dil nahi bharta hai. Professional front things are going well, and personal front things are looking up, but there is life beyond the professional and personal sphere where only 'me' exists (egocentric Anoop!!!). The 'me' circle of life is not letting me sit tight and do things in regular manner, and today after talking to one of my student the 'me' inside me is just kicking me to get out and get going in truly 'me' style.

Life main pange ka bhout importance hai, specially jab panga life se lena ho (total Rajini style panga), and Khujali inside me never let me sit without these pangas. Now question is what is next Khujali for me, bas yahi point hai jahan par ek bada sa '?' (question mark) aa jata hai. I have done many crazy things in life and my khujali always biased towards adventure side of life, it always made me do things that raise the bar to a next level. But this time, its different! I am feeling like doing something different, this time its invoking my creative side, its invoking an entrepreneur inside me, its invoking responsible (?) me. 

Gustakhi maaf, but dear Khujali I am new to this new phase of life and 'me' don't not like being responsible. It just want to be same old irresponsible that do whatever it want to do, makes mistakes and laugh at those mistakes, like to make fool of itself and fool others and finally being enigmatic and love to see 'dhakkan' like expression on the faces of others. Being so unpredictable such that sometimes it surprise itself... and the great feeling of banging head with hand and have a free laugh (not the artificial one that we are used to these days). 

Well, what can I say... this is one of those weird posts that I usually write to confuse others ;) and as far as 'me' is concerned... he says- Neither fire, nor air, nor water, I know not who I am!

I am here again...

Before starting the poem, I would like to thank each and everyone of you who sent me messages and called me after reading my last post. It feels really good that there are some people out there who cares about you. Well, coming back to poem, it has been a long time since I wrote a poem in English, I am not good at this but thought why not give it a try- 

I am here again

 

I remember those days of sorrow,

I remember the days with no tomorrow,

I was trying to go beyond the gain,

… and I am here again.

The path was complicated with ups and downs,

I needed you when I was down,

You came and held my hand,

… and I am here again.

You are my destiny I knew,

But had the fear to accept the truth,

But, I fought my fears to win you again,

… and I am here again.

Now hold my hand and walk with me,

Down the roads reaching inside thee,

We walk down those memories again,

… as I am here again.

The clouds are giving sign of rain,  

Dance with me to ease my pain,

Let me kiss you in this rain,

… I am here for ‘you’ again.

A bad day...

Today was one of the bad day of my life, I was struggling all day just to feel free of all burdens. The fight between heart and mind is probably the oldest and most unresolved fight in the history, you don't know what you really want to do and what you are really doing. The heart is pulling you in one direction whereas mind is saying you you to do just opposite. The struggle of making a choice between heart and mind makes you a complete mess and in most of the cases you end up hurting yourself and hurting someone very close to you. most of the time there are some side effects as well... 

Today, I ended up hurting someone who is very close to me, broke my professional etiquette and for the first time shouted at one of the student who eventually ended up in tears, was not able to give my 110% in class, and in the end I am have nothing but feel of guilt.

After all this, at the end of the day I am still not sure which side I am going. Probably people have seen best of me, but not some are seeing worst of me, and I am standing totally helpless to do anything about it. Every time when I gets into any big trouble, I always look for some peace in any secluded place like temple or close to nature and try to find answers and I usually get the right answers, but this time all I am getting is a blank. I am a fighter and straggler who never gives up so easily, but this time I feel like giving up on very first step.

Some Kalmadi Jokes....

For last few days, I am receiving some sms and facebook comments about Kalmadi. Though the turned a national pride to national shame, but at the same time he himself became a national joke in front of the country. Some of the interesting msgs are jokes are compiled below. Please add your jocks and comments in the comments section. 

Disclaimer- I do not bear responsibility for any the jocks posted here, they are compiled ones! 

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Kalmadi tried to hang himself after all this shame, but ceiling in his house cracked and fall down. 

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Baba Kalmadi have you any shame, 

No sir, no sir, its a Loot Game,

Crores for my partner, Crores for my dame, 

Crores for me too, putting India to shame... 

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A teacher asked her student what his father does, he answered 'he's a  stripper working at a joint'. After class she asked him if it were true, and the boy said 'he's actually on the CWG committee working with Kalmadi, this sounds a lot less embarrassing'!!

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Kalmadi Kalmadi, yes papa

Eating money, no papa, 

Telling lies, no papa, 

Show your balance sheet... ha ha ha

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Saturday with Pav-Bhaji

Its been a while since I posted a blog related to food and related stuff. I accept and Italian food is my weakness, but you can't beat Indian food at its best. I started to like cooking when I was in US, initially it was a burden but slowly with headphones on and different experimentation (that include the incident when I almost set my apartment of fire) I started to enjoy cooking. My part time work at Rollins helped my in developing skills in International food and at the same time was lucky to get roomies who liked the variety in food and accepted my experiments with food! 

After coming back to India, its on and off with food. As I believe to cook the right food, you need right mood... after joining VIT, I again got a chance to get into cooking as its a good stress reliever in the evening when you have heavy day and need something to charge yourself. I have been doing some regular stuff for a while with occasional changes in the menu, and most of those changes are on Saturdays and Sundays, today its a good chance to get into cooking as its all day power cut and there is nothing much to do... planning for Pav Bhaji. As my cooking range is electric so have to wait till evening 6 before start cooking. I love making Pav Bhaji as people like it the way I cook, and today there is no one but me to enjoy it so its little odd but let it be... lets get on and get going... (I will post some pics as soon as it will be done)

P.S.- Some pics...

I know its a weird post from my side, but sometimes its fun to do stuff like this :)