Inside Out

Inside Out 

I wanna fly, high up in the sky,

Leaving everything that makes me shy,

Looking far from the visible sight,

Just to go beyond illusion and might…

I wanna swim, deep down the sea,

Visit mysteries hidden inside me,

To fight and win the war within,

To see the strength that not yet been seen…

I wanna dance, till I’m down,

Go in, out, and around,

See the world with a new prospect,

Live a life with faith, love and respect…

I wanna walk, through unknown path,

Feel so lonely that I could talk,

Leave past behind myself,

And go beyond conscious self…

I wanna see, into eyes of sun,

Feel the heat and get little drunk,

So that I can forget all the pain,

And enjoy the life that I call a game…

I wanna feel, true meaning of joy,

No fun in being shy and coy,

Go out and shout it loud,

I don’t care who is around…

I wanna know, the reason of being,

Though it’s not a simple thing,

I wanna know, purpose of my life,

The very reason why I survive…

I wanna die, with no regrets,

It doesn’t matter what I get,

But, today I am alive,

And, I gonna live my life… 

-anoop

Shit Happens!

So finally I am back! and this time I will be more regular... some of you must be shocked to see the title of the post, well this post is one of the most random, thoughtless, and negative (in a way) post I have written... it is just a result of an angry, confused and complicated mind condition... so digest it with Hajmola!

Confused… 

Who am I? I know not when you are around,

They say love defines a person, but I am long lost,

I walk down the lonely road, hoping you would join,

But in the end, I left alone with your memories…

You are my best friend, and you are my worst foe,

You were the one I trusted, had faith in you,

But you have broken trust, and faith,

Now you lost the left respect…

I am losing myself, becoming what I am not,

Just running behind the shadows of unknown,

Living in the sweet reminiscence of past,

Just want to convince myself, that we are a world apart…

I know, you think I made some mistakes,

But those mistakes were being rather grace,

I know its hard to bury past and look to the future,

But all I want is my old friend back!

Sometimes silence is so loud,

That it heard thousand miles,

It hits the wall within, and breaks heart,

Break this silence and hold my hand,

I want you, I need you, and… I love you. 

P.S.-  This is unedited raw version, and I intend to keep it like this...