I am here again...

Before starting the poem, I would like to thank each and everyone of you who sent me messages and called me after reading my last post. It feels really good that there are some people out there who cares about you. Well, coming back to poem, it has been a long time since I wrote a poem in English, I am not good at this but thought why not give it a try- 

I am here again

 

I remember those days of sorrow,

I remember the days with no tomorrow,

I was trying to go beyond the gain,

… and I am here again.

The path was complicated with ups and downs,

I needed you when I was down,

You came and held my hand,

… and I am here again.

You are my destiny I knew,

But had the fear to accept the truth,

But, I fought my fears to win you again,

… and I am here again.

Now hold my hand and walk with me,

Down the roads reaching inside thee,

We walk down those memories again,

… as I am here again.

The clouds are giving sign of rain,  

Dance with me to ease my pain,

Let me kiss you in this rain,

… I am here for ‘you’ again.

A bad day...

Today was one of the bad day of my life, I was struggling all day just to feel free of all burdens. The fight between heart and mind is probably the oldest and most unresolved fight in the history, you don't know what you really want to do and what you are really doing. The heart is pulling you in one direction whereas mind is saying you you to do just opposite. The struggle of making a choice between heart and mind makes you a complete mess and in most of the cases you end up hurting yourself and hurting someone very close to you. most of the time there are some side effects as well... 

Today, I ended up hurting someone who is very close to me, broke my professional etiquette and for the first time shouted at one of the student who eventually ended up in tears, was not able to give my 110% in class, and in the end I am have nothing but feel of guilt.

After all this, at the end of the day I am still not sure which side I am going. Probably people have seen best of me, but not some are seeing worst of me, and I am standing totally helpless to do anything about it. Every time when I gets into any big trouble, I always look for some peace in any secluded place like temple or close to nature and try to find answers and I usually get the right answers, but this time all I am getting is a blank. I am a fighter and straggler who never gives up so easily, but this time I feel like giving up on very first step.

Some Kalmadi Jokes....

For last few days, I am receiving some sms and facebook comments about Kalmadi. Though the turned a national pride to national shame, but at the same time he himself became a national joke in front of the country. Some of the interesting msgs are jokes are compiled below. Please add your jocks and comments in the comments section. 

Disclaimer- I do not bear responsibility for any the jocks posted here, they are compiled ones! 

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Kalmadi tried to hang himself after all this shame, but ceiling in his house cracked and fall down. 

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Baba Kalmadi have you any shame, 

No sir, no sir, its a Loot Game,

Crores for my partner, Crores for my dame, 

Crores for me too, putting India to shame... 

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A teacher asked her student what his father does, he answered 'he's a  stripper working at a joint'. After class she asked him if it were true, and the boy said 'he's actually on the CWG committee working with Kalmadi, this sounds a lot less embarrassing'!!

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Kalmadi Kalmadi, yes papa

Eating money, no papa, 

Telling lies, no papa, 

Show your balance sheet... ha ha ha

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Saturday with Pav-Bhaji

Its been a while since I posted a blog related to food and related stuff. I accept and Italian food is my weakness, but you can't beat Indian food at its best. I started to like cooking when I was in US, initially it was a burden but slowly with headphones on and different experimentation (that include the incident when I almost set my apartment of fire) I started to enjoy cooking. My part time work at Rollins helped my in developing skills in International food and at the same time was lucky to get roomies who liked the variety in food and accepted my experiments with food! 

After coming back to India, its on and off with food. As I believe to cook the right food, you need right mood... after joining VIT, I again got a chance to get into cooking as its a good stress reliever in the evening when you have heavy day and need something to charge yourself. I have been doing some regular stuff for a while with occasional changes in the menu, and most of those changes are on Saturdays and Sundays, today its a good chance to get into cooking as its all day power cut and there is nothing much to do... planning for Pav Bhaji. As my cooking range is electric so have to wait till evening 6 before start cooking. I love making Pav Bhaji as people like it the way I cook, and today there is no one but me to enjoy it so its little odd but let it be... lets get on and get going... (I will post some pics as soon as it will be done)

P.S.- Some pics...

I know its a weird post from my side, but sometimes its fun to do stuff like this :)

Beautiful Stranger

Last few days were very eventful in my life, now when I look back then I realize that I have done so many things last few days which were totally unlike me, the things that I used to think that I will ever do in my life. But, life is full of surprises and you never know when you will see a magic in your life.

Some strange things happens so fast that you never know that its a dream or reality. I think I am in a dream streak these days, time is flying like anything and I feel like living each and every moment of it. I am just trying to keep some of these moment close to me, and feel like I could get hold of them but definitely its not possible. Moments pass by, but memories are always there to cherish. Life is very strange, moments that makes us happy at present same moments makes us cry after some time and in the same way the moments that makes us cry at present gives us a reason to laugh in future. 

This life is full of struggle and disappointments sometimes, and when some moments of happiness comes they look so strange that sometime they scare us, and looks like illusion. I live in moments and enjoy them, but at the same time get scared of it. That time you have some 'addictions' in your life which takes you away from all fears and give you a confidence in yourself. For some people addictions are bed, but for me I love my addiction :)

Just a thought...

Recently someone posted it on google buzz... I really liked it so rephrasing it here- 

"Never miss an opportunity to make others happy, even if you have to leave them alone in order to do it...."

When you are at comfort level with someone, the person could be any one, your good friend, student, sibling or even the one you love. You get to know them and sometimes you get surprised with the hidden potential of that person. You get to know goods and evil of the person, initial period is always full of hick-ups as you are getting to know each other. Sometimes some of the incidents/talks make you feel that the potential of the person in totally unexplored, and to see them successful, sometimes you have to make some sacrifices. Just looking at long term goals, short term ones looks insignificant. If you really care about them, sometimes its imperative to leave them or even leave them on bad terms. Probably they will never know it, and they will never want to see your face again, but you always know at bottom of your heart that you care about them...

Ciao... 

Why?

Why do we bang our had on the rock when we know that its going to hurt us in the anyways? 

Why do we make make same mistakes again and again when we know that result will going to be same? 

Why can't we understand simplest things in the life? 

Why its so hard to draw lines sometimes? 

Why do we give up so early sometimes? 

Why its so hard to understand people and its so hard for them to understand you? 

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Lot of questions, but no answer...

Surprized!

I used to tell my friends that big decisions in life takes least time, but I never experienced it before. But, sometimes life surprises you the way that you have never expected. Some moments feels like they should never pass and some moments pass so fast the you left surprised that how it happened! Its just an exuberance... an excitement from inside.

Right now, I can't say anything... but I am just living the moment and enjoying every bit of it. 

Salaam Zindagi!

Noor-e-Hindustan...

I am sure most of you watching news and following some stories coming into media for last two months from Kashmir region. I don't know what to say about that situation, because as a proud Indian I have no doubt that Kashmir region was, is and will be a part of Republic of India. But at the same time I have concerns about the people over there, and about the tax payers money being wasted on one single state. 

I know that this post may be little strike on some of us, but seriously just take the two points I have mentioned above. First, about people of Kashmir, if just 5% of there allegation on Indian police and army is true then just imagine how tough life would be there to live in this situation, at the same time the daily life threat from militants and other separatist groups. You can't pick a side and without picking a side you can't survive. So, what is the result? Some fools will influence you and guide you in the way that you are behaving these days. It is the time when government leave all the pride behind and take this issue seriously and take some strict steps to control the situation, not by keeping people inside their home but by creating an open atmosphere there. 

Now looking at the other side, I do accept that people there have problems and they are in some real tough situation. But, will behavior like this will solve the problems? I believe that the way there people are behaving these days is little immature. If they don't have faith in their country and they think the neighbors will be a better option then what the hack they are doing here, they should have moved back there long back. They have to understand that the amount money put on this single state and special provisions given to this state are something which they will never get in either of autonomy or going with Pakistan option. I don't know if these people watch television or not and how much they are in touch with the situation across the border, just think of a life in that country and ask your self that is that the place where you want to be?

I believe that there are two clear options in front of people and Government of India- 

1- Try to mix with the mainstream in India, and don't look at the government with expectation of something 'special'. Be a good citizen of India and support the country by helping us removing all these trouble makers like militants and separatist. You can do so by informing any suspicious activities near by your place, not giving them place to live and perform operations and at the same time boycott these separatist parties, if you won't support them, there will be no existence of them in the beautiful valley. 

2- Its my humble request to my government that stop throwing  a big chunk of tax payers money on a single state if these people are not ready to co-operate. If you calculate the amount of money spend on different schemes, military operations and other stuff in this state it would a shocking revelation. Why not spend the money on development of country, infrastructure, creating jobs, warfare, agriculture, education, sports etc. I believe that we have more big concerns they to worry about. China is creating troubles everyday, if some emergency arrives then we should be in a position to stand by our-self. So why not focus on making the country stronger. 

This second point is written keeping in mind that if people of  J&K are not cooperate. I believe that if this is the case, let them go be a part of some other nation or let them be on their own, they will learn soon that what blunder they have made. At the same time, open doors for the people who really want to be a part of this country and reallocate them in other states. I believe that this step would be a responsible as well as strict step. 

Anoop

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Common Wealth Game

Two years back when I was in US, there was some exciting things to look forward in India after my return. One of those was Common Wealth Games in Delhi, and to tell you the truth I intended to attend the games, but that time I didn't knew that Common Wealth Games means Commonly Wealthy ban-ne ke Games (Games to become wealthy commonly) for politicians. 

Facts have been stated many times, and I am repeating once again that amount of money spent for preparations is more than that of Beijing Olympics, work done is hardly 10-20% of them. None of the sport complex and sport village can be called completely done! No sporting facility is available for players to practice regularly. People responsible for all this mess up are not even accepting their fault, on top of that they are busy in blame game and being ignorant. All these things have been said repeatedly, along with much more irregularities. The corruption will require a separate blog post, and I seriously do not want to touch that topic as it just more and more disappointment. 

I am not writing this blog to restate the complaints as you all know about them, this blog is about what should be done about it. I believe that this is the time to shake things up from top to bottom. Last time I saw some hope, anger and awareness in this country after Mumbai attack, I think the time is calling us to show the same face again to tighten up the things. I think that some of the things that we can do are- 

1. Boycott the games, I am serious about. Those who know me, they know that I am not a person that support this type of activities. But time is asking for sending a strong message to this government, opposition and all the useless people sitting in parliament. Whole world should see what happens in this country... no Mr. Singh or Mr. Gandhi can cover this shame. Its not against the players participating form Indian side, but national interest is above individual interest. 

2. Country wide legal cases filed against IOC, and other people involved in this scam. One or two request can be ignored, but when thousands and millions of cases filed, they can't be ignored. 

3. All players should boycott the associations run by politicians (irrespective of they are honest). Specialists of the game should be given ultimate power. Politicians could be given role of 'external adviser' at max. 

4. There should be a new provision to file criminal cases against these a$$*****. 

I think that money spent on organizing these games was enough to develop multi-sports facilities throughout the country, or to meet any problem like hunger, poverty, illiteracy up to a great extent. So, next time any candidature should be proposed after common consensus is the country. When thousands of farmers are dying out of hunger, there is no arrangement of power, or even clean water to drink I believe country is not in a good condition to bear these games with corruption on top.

P.S.- anyways we are not going to create magic in these games, so there is not matter of pride in conducting these games saying that it will bring pride for India in sporting world.