Inside Out

Inside Out 

I wanna fly, high up in the sky,

Leaving everything that makes me shy,

Looking far from the visible sight,

Just to go beyond illusion and might…

I wanna swim, deep down the sea,

Visit mysteries hidden inside me,

To fight and win the war within,

To see the strength that not yet been seen…

I wanna dance, till I’m down,

Go in, out, and around,

See the world with a new prospect,

Live a life with faith, love and respect…

I wanna walk, through unknown path,

Feel so lonely that I could talk,

Leave past behind myself,

And go beyond conscious self…

I wanna see, into eyes of sun,

Feel the heat and get little drunk,

So that I can forget all the pain,

And enjoy the life that I call a game…

I wanna feel, true meaning of joy,

No fun in being shy and coy,

Go out and shout it loud,

I don’t care who is around…

I wanna know, the reason of being,

Though it’s not a simple thing,

I wanna know, purpose of my life,

The very reason why I survive…

I wanna die, with no regrets,

It doesn’t matter what I get,

But, today I am alive,

And, I gonna live my life… 

-anoop

Shit Happens!

So finally I am back! and this time I will be more regular... some of you must be shocked to see the title of the post, well this post is one of the most random, thoughtless, and negative (in a way) post I have written... it is just a result of an angry, confused and complicated mind condition... so digest it with Hajmola!

Confused… 

Who am I? I know not when you are around,

They say love defines a person, but I am long lost,

I walk down the lonely road, hoping you would join,

But in the end, I left alone with your memories…

You are my best friend, and you are my worst foe,

You were the one I trusted, had faith in you,

But you have broken trust, and faith,

Now you lost the left respect…

I am losing myself, becoming what I am not,

Just running behind the shadows of unknown,

Living in the sweet reminiscence of past,

Just want to convince myself, that we are a world apart…

I know, you think I made some mistakes,

But those mistakes were being rather grace,

I know its hard to bury past and look to the future,

But all I want is my old friend back!

Sometimes silence is so loud,

That it heard thousand miles,

It hits the wall within, and breaks heart,

Break this silence and hold my hand,

I want you, I need you, and… I love you. 

P.S.-  This is unedited raw version, and I intend to keep it like this...

A letter to my students

Dear Students,

As many of you aware of that I am leaving VIT soon, so I thought that this would be a nice time to interact with you one last time and say my goodbye. Last year, I joined VIT in month of March, that time I was excited as well as little scared too. Excited, for that reason that I will be pursuing my dream career and scared because I didn't wanted to mess up my first assignment.

First few month were just regular as I didn't had any class or interaction with you, but from July onwards things changed. I still remember my very first class, I had a lot of plan that I will do this or that... but to be really frank teaching is just like any game where plans are in place until you are not in the field. Once you enter that game, all dynamics changes, and so happened with me, and I must confess that it happened for better. First, six month were full of learning for me as a teacher right from understanding mind sets of my students to work with class dynamics, it was a great experience.

Taking a subject like Embedded System was even more fun, as I was also a student of that subject and every day I had to appear in exam two times (which I did failed couple of times). I believe we shared out best and worst during this period in some of the most interesting as well as boring classes. Then came second semester, which was a totally different experience. Learning is part of life, and I was learning in this class as well. But one thing that was standing out from all was the 'fun' factor that was added to class. I always believe in enjoying my work assignment, and the first year students brought that 'IT' factor into class and it could never get better than that.

Anyways coming to the point, although my age and experience is very small but I thought that I should share some of things with you through this media. May be some of you find it useful-

1. Work hard, party hard: Life is a celebration, so why miss a chance to celebrate every moment that we live may be its a success or a defeat. This is your time, time to go out there and show the world that your presence matters. Work hard as you have never done before and taste the success in every walk of you life. But life full of work sometimes becomes monotonous, so whats the perfect balance?? Party!!!

2. Take challenges, accept defeats and be a winner: When I look at my classes, I see a lot of potential. Time-to-time I tried to challenge you and to my pleasant surprise you always achieved more than my expectations. I feel bad when such a talent seems standstill, it is your time take up the new challenges and explore new possibilities in you. I am very sure that you will be surprised to see your development once you start challenging your limits.

Winning and losing is part of life, some time you will face setbacks in your life. Accept them. Learn from them, re-discover yourself and come out as winner.

3. Search for your little moments of joy, fall in love: There are always little moments of joy around us, may be its a cup of coffee in rains, watching a child playing, your hobbies or anything under the sun that gives you 'that' moment. Once you find these moments around, life will be fun! Fall in love with these moments, cherish them and store them down the memory lane.

4. Life is crazy, it is mess so why not you!: You will meet lot of crazy moments and crazy people in your life. Believe me, sometimes it a good to be crazy or being a mess just of of fun quotient hidden in it. At least do something totally crazy once in your college life. This memory will always going to be with you.

5. Make your bucket list: We see, we feel a lot things around us. And some of these things we really wanted to do in our life, be it being next Bill Gates, or diving from open sky or giving most romantic proposal to person you love. Why not make a list of those desires, and don't forget to update it time to time. Do read it once in a week or paste it in front of your study desk, it will always keep you on the move.

6. Be good, be honest: In the end, I just want to say that be good to others and be honest to yourself. I don't see any sense in having a life full of baggage on our back, be simple and be open about your opinions you will see that life is not that complicated as it is projected by people. Be a good citizen, and active member or society, and an honest person that can take pride in what he does.

This world is very small, we will meet soon at some point in your life... till then good luck to all of you. Fly high and touch the sky...

Good Luck! 

Ciao...

Oops!

• Battle between heart and mind is an age old battle, and I believe every normal human being has this experience at some phase of time. I must say that first part is little strong at my side, heart rules most of the time. 
• I love adventure in life, slow-monotonous and boring life is the last thing that I want, and this thing make me do many things that I do not expect that I will ever able to do. 
• Most of the biggest decisions in my life were the decisions that I took in shortest time. Be it MS, or not appearing in visa interview at first time, or it is leaving TCS, joining VIT etc. 
• I have this huge 'khujali' (I did mentioned in one of my previous post) that never let me sit still and follow the life as it is. 
• I love taking risks at times, specially for achieving my dreams. 
• I like to be unpredictable, even to my close ones even to myself. 

Well, you must be wondering what I am talking about! The fact is, if you are getting some gist from the points that I mentioned above... I did something again... I don't really know if its a right decision at this point or not or even if it is just a reckless behavior. But one thing is for sure that something big is on the way that will be either "make it or break it" for me. Its time when I am keeping my fingers crossed, and preparing to bring my A-game when I start this new phase. 

Bharat Bhagya Vidhata

I have been coming home early every day since this Tuesday, the reason is one 72 year old young man who has been struggling against corruption for last 3 decades, and this Tuesday he silently started his strongest campaign ever. It was a great relief to see that for the first time whole India united for a cause, rich or poor, young or old, educated or uneducated... everyone is talking in the same tone.

Even after being in Vellore, at other end of country, I can feel the heat of movement that he started in Delhi. Probably this is the fastest awakening movement in the history of modern India, just in four days whole country is looking much more aware and much more mature. Everyone was self invited in this movement and I have surprised to see the momentum this movement has gained and rate with which word has been spread across the country and world is simply incredible. It simply shows the undercurrent against corruption and tainted ministers that was just waiting for a right time and right guidance to blow out.

It was a sweet relief that political parties are totally kept out of the activities, as it is a known truth in India that every political party in power behaves the same. I am not sure how successful this movement will be, but it will definitely send a very strong message to everyone sitting in parliament that ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.

I always had complaint to people working in their air conditioned offices that they never trouble themselves to come on streets for a good cause, but this time even that missing part of society also joined hand. Now I am expecting that this part of society will actively go and cast vote on election day to choose right people.

On the side note, this movement clearly shows that when experience of old and energy of youth joins hand, it can do wonder. It has been said that before fighting enemies of outside, we should fight enemies inside. For the country these enemies are poverty, unemployment, and lake of education and the root of all these problems are directly or indirectly corruption. So, lets join our hands together in fights against this evil and also pledge that we will not any form of corruption.

Today, I can say that I am a proud Indian and for Anna its all respect.

Jai Hind
 ...

ख़ामोशी

ख़ामोशी 

खामोश नज़रें कुछ कहती है, 

बातें फिर भी दिल में रहती है|

इन नज़रों में एक ख्वाब है, 

तमन्ना है कुछ करने की,

बहुत आगे बदने की, 

क्षितिज को छूने की,

आसमा से ऊंचा उड़ने की, 

दुनिया मुट्ठी में करने की, 

बस, यही एक ख्वाब है|

बातें भी कुछ ख़ास है, 

इस नासमझ दिल के पास है, 

बातें है मंजिलो की, 

मंजिलो को जाती राहों की, 

कहती है तू इन राहों पर चले जा, 

अपने मन की करे जा, 

बस, यूँ ही आगे बढ़े जा| 

इन नज़रों में छुपी जो बातें है, 

ख्वाबों से भरी जो आखें है, 

कहती है छु लो आसमान, 

अनंत हो तुम, अद्भुत है तुम्हारी क्षमता, 

अविरल अविचल बढते चलो, 

सब को अपना करते चलो...

- अनूप 

Beautiful Stranger

Beautiful Stranger

Day and night I think about you,

Who are you? A dream or reality,

I can see you, I can feel you,

You are my destiny, you are my fate,

You are a beautiful stranger…

I wanna meet you, I wanna touch you,

I wanna hold you, I wanna kiss you,

Waiting for that ‘perfect’ moment,

When you will be in front of my eyes,

Driving me crazy, dancing in the rain…

I am losing myself looking into your eyes,

I feel warmth of love deep down inside,

Then I hear your silky voice,

An unknown voice but still so known,

A voice of destination of this endless voyage… 

We started walking through wild countryside,

Holding hand in hand, taking leap of faith,

Thus come twilight time and we reach beach side,

We set there in deep silence,

Talking in our hearts, looking into eyes,

Then comes the moonlight,

To touch our heart and soul, to take us to our divine goal…  

-anoop